Day 25 Made it Late night musings… How do I put my life back together in a world where he doesn’t exist? Almost 9 years of partnershipAlmost 13 years of friendshipGone Thrown away like it was worthless The worst part isI just want my best friend back
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I was contemplating lifeThey would have been 5
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Hmmm I had an epiphanyHe says he likes her because she’s like meBut then it has been bothering meI started thinking about itBut there’s no way she’s like meI would never chase an attached manIf I was married I would never stray from my marriageIf I had children I would never abandon my childrenI would…
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4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.7 It always protects, always trusts,…
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Day 21Today’s my birthdayI’m 29And I’m aloneAnd he’s with her
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I say yes and do thingsBut I barely existI asked him for a favourFor just one nightHold me and let me sleepHold me so that nothing happensno dreams, no nightmares, no interrupted sleepAnd he said she probably wouldn’t be OK with itAnd what, it was OK for her to take my partner?OK for her to…
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I am so weakI cry to myself late at nightAnd I prayI pray for him to come back to meI pray for her to let him goAnd I feel so pathetic and weakThen I beg God for forgivenessBecause I covet him even though he’s no longer mineI pray that their lives be difficult and full…
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please just give me time to be ok I lost the love of my lifeI lost my soulmateI lost my personI lost my best friend he has left me with nothing and no one and he gets to have herI barely function day to day and he gets to be happyI hardly sleep for more…
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I’m going to be real here for a minuteBecause I’ve had a really bad dayMy life changed on 22nd January 2019 at 10:17pmI’ve lived through the last 16 days of my new life The black holes I’ve gone down in this timeThere’s to many to countEverything is a pitfallI can’t protect him anymoreI just can’t…
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Because I’m emotionally broken…I realise I’m sexually broken as well…and I will be forever…No one to cuddle withNo one to hold me tight and tell me its all going to be okThere is no oneAnd I will always just be me now and forever
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