please just give me time to be ok

I lost the love of my life
I lost my soulmate
I lost my person
I lost my best friend

he has left me with nothing and no one and he gets to have her
I barely function day to day and he gets to be happy
I hardly sleep for more then 15 minutes at a time and he gets a good night’s rest
your words to be strong and move on are kind and well intentioned
but please just give me time