We were born in a time when if something was broken, we would fix it. Not just throw it away. You want to know the difference between love and possession? Love says “I want you to be happy.”Possession says “I want you to make me happy.” While possession says “me.”Love says “we.” Possession is a…
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My life now has a beginning, a middle, and an end. Everything before was preamble. Now I have you. One day you will be gone, and my life will be over.
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I wish I was a vindictive hard hearted bitch I would ruin their lives and make sure they could never run awayI would hunt them down and never let them have a moments peaceI would declare to the world all that they have done, and make sure they would never find solaceI would push them…
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at least he talked to me todaybut he still kept trying to say there is someone out there for meI like internally want to screamthis was ithe was my everythingI will never have another personThere will never be anyone elseAnd I want him to stop lying to himself
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I finally did itI finally got my extra piercingsTrying to live a new lifeBut I am so tormented insideI wished he was there to hold my handBut I also liked the pain….I like the constant numbing pain I feel now from themThe pain makes me feel aliveLike I exist outside of the numbness
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Day 28 I’m going to be honest for a minute, today was a really bad day 22nd January 2019 at 10:17pm my world ended Exactly 4 weeks ago today everything was broken The blackholes I’ve gone down these days are endless It hurts and I can barely breath sometimes, I lost everything I can never…
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Day 28 I still love himI still want him What is wrong with me Why does he think I’m over reacting about him leaving me?Why doesn’t he think it’s a big deal?Why does he think leaving me shouldn’t break me?Why does he think leaving me shouldn’t crush my world?
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jesus everything i count as lossto know you and be known as yoursto share with you in your sufferingto be with you in glory come and be my exceedingly great rewardyou’re the treasure that i would give my whole life forwhat would it profit me to gain the world but lose my soul?i know my…
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Day 25 Made it Late night musings… How do I put my life back together in a world where he doesn’t exist? Almost 9 years of partnershipAlmost 13 years of friendshipGone Thrown away like it was worthless The worst part isI just want my best friend back
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I was contemplating lifeThey would have been 5
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