“A consumer relationship is where my needs are more important than the relationship but a covenant relationship is where the relationship is more important than my needs.”
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He made sure of it
I may smile all the timeBut that doesn’t mean I’m happy like I use to beI’m not that bubbly girl anymoreHe made sure of it
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Psychological Warfare
It’s interesting to watch psychological warfare. The lying cheating adulterating mistresses and all their accomplices squirm and run and hide. Attempting to cover their tracks for all their sins and guilt and shame and the lies they have whispered during pillow talk. Sometimes the best thing you can do is keep your mouth shut and…
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He broke me
I was in my childhood neighborhood yesterdayclementia neighborhood that he has desecrated with herI can’t even exist in my own lifehe broke me
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Day 70
Day 70 Those of you harboring him, enabling him and telling him what he did was kismet and righteous. I understand he hates his label. Lying Cheating Adultering Mistress Whore So please, as his co-conspirators, as people who supposedly claim to love and care for him and give more of a damn about him than…
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Barely Functioning
spent friday to sunday in some state of drunk/hung overbarely functioningI woke this morning to the worst dream possibleI dreamed of hershe cornered me and wanted to talkI let it all out at herI screamed it so everyone could hearshe made him her lying cheating adulterating mistresshow no one would ever believe in mental healthcare…
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Never Again
Never again…you can keep running…but the memories of your actions will always haunt you…and how you have turned your back on every single piece of advice you have ever given anyone in the last 26 years…no one will ever trust you again…remember you did this…you blinded yourself to her lies…even when the proof is out…
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Daily routine
Daily routine Wake up either OK or like I was punched in the gutVomit nothing outCry in the showerHeadphones on for constant music to distract me from having a panic attack or burst in to tears on the way to workBe distracted by workMaybe eat lunchHeadphones on and music to zone everything else outHave at…
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To survive
Everything is a distractionTo survive to the next momentI’m not okNot even close to okI’m brokenI can barely breathI still have multiple attacks dailyAnd I hate feeling so helplessI hate that every night I weep from the depths of my soulI hate that the only way I can sleep uninterrupted and without dreams of him…
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Vanity
“It is vanity that blinds us to our own blindness.” Do you not fear being under the control of a woman?
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